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About Me Member Emotional Poet Nightbane8621/Male/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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well now it has been a while indeed...

Sun Jul 12, 2009, 11:07 PM
  • Mood: Joy
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Watching: hellsing ultimate
how has everyone been first of all?

iv'e been doin extremly well lets start from where we left off. i ended up leaving my roomates house and have spent the last several mounths living with my g/f and her family (not my idea but i had no choice in the matter really) about a mounth later i got a job as a security guard but when that stoped calling i had no choice but to seek other work so now i work at a movie theater 50 miles away. she has been under a lot of stress the past couple of months and its been making me feel really self-concious. making up ecuses not to kiss me amoung other things... i have never looked at another woman my whole life im loyal to the end but latly i find myself distracted. is this normal i find myself flirting hoping that it will lead to something more then what i have. but i have made this mistake before and do not wish to be alone again im confused cuz i know im not happy with things right now. for instence i cant spend anything i make were saving for a place, so i have to ask her for everything i need or want. i dont like it. i feel like a child.

its good to be back...

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  • Favourite game: Dead Rising
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  • Personal Quote: try to be happy and never look down
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Comments


:iconmany-eyeshere:
Hey I've missed you too. I don't write about life much, unless in metaphor...I feel very self-centred and emo otherwise.

I don't know, mum's been in and out of hospital all year for long periods of time. Um things keep going wrong with her. I'm almost finished the HSC. Can't wait until it's done. Otherwise I have literally done nothing...

Oh I met a guy and I really like him, I don't know exaltly what we have but I like it. See even writing that seems slfish and teenage...

Yeah my life's been home problems, undone assignments, bunch of paperwork, submition for very late assignment and zero mark, more home problems, having half extentsional conversations with friend in Melbourne, see a movie or go out with the guy maybe once every week or two...Dad still acting like a child:P. Same shit, there's not much variation in my life. I haven't even had time to write anything longer than a poem this year because of HSC...hopefully I will still be able to write prose when I get the time.

Yeah that's about it...dreams of escapism sometimes occur overpower the medication...I can't get into something too much, a book, comic or movie, or I get very depressed (more so) because it's fiction.

Actually I haven't really felt a proper emotion since 2007. Everything's completely level because of the anti=depressants and anti-pyschotics...I only get noticible depressed or stressed when things are extremely stressful (I've cried once this year, last month when dad screamed and cursed at me in arabic for no reason and called me a self cunt, I'd had enough by then and was at breaking point) and mum was in hospitial at the time...

Anyway enough of this shit, how've you been? How did moving states go?

:hug:

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:iconnightbane86:
wow i have never had so much written to me i am doing well. hope to be on more often... talk to me if you get on

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:iconmany-eyeshere:
Come back, I miss you:(.

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I breathe Ether. (can't choke).
And there is only vividness, omnipotence and hyperreality.
:iconnightbane86:
ok im back. i missed you as well.

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:iconmany-eyeshere:
Where you been:)?

Having fun hopefully:).

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And there is only vividness, omnipotence and hyperreality.
:iconnightbane86:
kinda been busy as hell. rarly on now a days but ill try harder to be on.

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:iconingeapplegoose:
thanx for the favs anthony:D

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:iconnightbane86:
anytime, i'll get the rest of them when i get some time right now im on a friends computer...

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:iconingeapplegoose:
ugggh great:D!!!!!!

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:iconingeapplegoose:
yaay huggles for the fav:hug:

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