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But i love you

But i love you
Will you be there when i die kiss me one final time catch me when i fall and bleed would you even wanna cry while you watch me slowly die watching as my blooddrips rolling off my finger tips drips onto the floor making puddles more and more hearing all my bloody cries watch tears roll from my eyes gasping for one final breath pain swells up in my chest spreading through my arms and legs numb but i can still feel pain i try to regret nothing but that is so hard to do when all i hear is "but i love

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DEDUCTIV REASONING AND PROBLEMim pissed i stayed at my G/f house for a few days i come back and my ipod is gone... now i know exactly where i left it because i plugged it into my stereo before i left. i always turn it off when nothing is plugged into it. my Roommate who is on probation is the only one with the key to my room. he hasn't been happy with me since i haven't been paying rent. i believe he took it and sold it to kenny someone we both worked with. when i noticed it was missing i asked charlie if he had seen my ipod he asked me really dumb questions like color and did it in a sarcastic tone. he had also gotten new 80 dollar shoes outta nowhere. i knew he had it. DEDUCTIV REASONING AND PROBLEM
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This Ray Of LightAnd i will sit here for all time in the dark with only this ray on light, this ray of everlasting hope that one day i will find you wherever you may be. and when that day comes i will be sad no more because on that day i will be free from the darkness in my own heart and soul. This Ray Of Light
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well now it has been a while indeed...

Sun Jul 12, 2009, 11:07 PM

Mood: Joy
Listening to: nothing
Watching: hellsing ultimate

how has everyone been first of all?

iv'e been doin extremly well lets start from where we left off. i ended up leaving my roomates house and have spent the last several mounths living with my g/f and her family (not my idea but i had no choice in the matter really) about a mounth later i got a job as a security guard but when that stoped calling i had no choice but to seek other work so now i work at a movie theater 50 miles away. she has been under a lot of stress the past couple of months and its been making me feel really self-concious. making up ecuses not to kiss me amoung other things... i have never looked at another woman my whole life im loyal to the end but latly i find myself distracted. is this normal i find myself flirting hoping that it will lead to something more then what i have. but i have made this mistake before and do not wish to be alone again im confused cuz i know im not happy with things right now. for instence i cant spend anything i make were saving for a place, so i have to ask her for everything i need or want. i dont like it. i feel like a child.

its good to be back...

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Current Residence: living in my own head
deviantWEAR sizing preference: The larger the confier :)
Interests: poetry,music,life,love
Favourite movie: The Nightmare Before Xmas
Favourite band or musician: Three Days Grace
Favourite genre of music: Alternitive
Favourite artist: Tim Burton
Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Allan Poe
Favourite photographer: Undecided
Favourite style of art: Undecided
Operating System: windows for now
MP3 player of choice: the one that was stolen from me hehe i stole it back
Shell of choice: teenage mutent ninja turtles of course
Wallpaper of choice: Anything anime
Skin of choice: The one I stole from that nun in Switzerland. ^_^
Favourite game: Dead Rising
Favourite gaming platform: Xbox 360
Favourite cartoon character: Death Note
Personal Quote: try to be happy and never look down
Tools of the Trade: My Mind, my heart, and a pen and paper

Email: swearingrapter@hotmail.com

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~Many-eyeshere Sep 17, 2009, 2:52:44 AM

Hey I've missed you too. I don't write about life much, unless in metaphor...I feel very self-centred and emo otherwise.

I don't know, mum's been in and out of hospital all year for long periods of time. Um things keep going wrong with her. I'm almost finished the HSC. Can't wait until it's done. Otherwise I have literally done nothing...

Oh I met a guy and I really like him, I don't know exaltly what we have but I like it. See even writing that seems slfish and teenage...

Yeah my life's been home problems, undone assignments, bunch of paperwork, submition for very late assignment and zero mark, more home problems, having half extentsional conversations with friend in Melbourne, see a movie or go out with the guy maybe once every week or two...Dad still acting like a child

. Same shit, there's not much variation in my life. I haven't even had time to write anything longer than a poem this year because of HSC...hopefully I will still be able to write prose when I get the time.

Yeah that's about it...dreams of escapism sometimes occur overpower the medication...I can't get into something too much, a book, comic or movie, or I get very depressed (more so) because it's fiction.

Actually I haven't really felt a proper emotion since 2007. Everything's completely level because of the anti=depressants and anti-pyschotics...I only get noticible depressed or stressed when things are extremely stressful (I've cried once this year, last month when dad screamed and cursed at me in arabic for no reason and called me a self cunt, I'd had enough by then and was at breaking point) and mum was in hospitial at the time...

Anyway enough of this shit, how've you been? How did moving states go?

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I breathe Ether. (can't choke).
And there is only vividness, omnipotence and hyperreality.

~Nightbane86 Oct 11, 2009, 12:41:56 AM

wow i have never had so much written to me i am doing well. hope to be on more often... talk to me if you get on

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Why is everything so dark???
hello is anyone there?