how has everyone been first of all?

iv'e been doin extremly well lets start from where we left off. i ended up leaving my roomates house and have spent the last several mounths living with my g/f and her family (not my idea but i had no choice in the matter really) about a mounth later i got a job as a security guard but when that stoped calling i had no choice but to seek other work so now i work at a movie theater 50 miles away. she has been under a lot of stress the past couple of months and its been making me feel really self-concious. making up ecuses not to kiss me amoung other things... i have never looked at another woman my whole life im loyal to the end but latly i find myself distracted. is this normal i find myself flirting hoping that it will lead to something more then what i have. but i have made this mistake before and do not wish to be alone again im confused cuz i know im not happy with things right now. for instence i cant spend anything i make were saving for a place, so i have to ask her for everything i need or want. i dont like it. i feel like a child.

its good to be back...